i like you alot...

i really like you, how i am suppose to express my feelings to you? I am scared of rejection but i've been waiting for so long. I think you're not over your ex yet. sigh. i really want you to make the first move. Like text me first, and ask me out first. i know that you like it when the girl makes the first move, but i just cant do it. I seem so petty. How can someone so nice and sweet like you even like me? Me. A crazy, mentally unstable, weird taste in music type of girl. I mean we dont even like the same music, well maybe some. I hope you dont see age as a hold up for you, because i really do like you. sorry. i am such a mess.

cold days

laura was sleeping in my bed. she woke up and said she dreaming of us getting kidnapped. I said come here and she lied here next to me for hours. I knew she felt safe under my arms. She always felt safe with me. After awhile she spoke about how she would get these flashbacks of these people taking her away from me. I smiled, because i knew the drugs were working, working just enough for me to touch her, where she wont remember a thing. This was the kind of life i was living. One were i knew laura loved me but was too scared of me to let me touch her. I mean i cant help it. I've waited too long, now was the time to make my move.

I looked at her after i was finished. she stared at me with her sweet innocent eyes."Tell me you love me". "I love you." she said gently. The end came quick.

hullo

 i missed nic so much

 nicole is so pretty!!!!

 germaine the butch

hi havent been updating in awhile but here is me