demon

I hate you my soul is missing. I know you took it. I miss smiling and happiness is an outdated concept. Karma will come for you with a baseball bat, and when your blood stains the earth, I will smile. I built my castle and I will also tear it down. If you had a heart I would eat it, if you had a soul I would steal it. But I’m not cruel so I’ll just leave you alone.

I’m a friend of the devils. Are you a friend of mine?

empty once again

i always have this empty feeling in myself. always. it not particularly big, but its there, i can hear it.
i hate it. all i want is to have that banished from my body, from my mind.
i cannot let it go, because i always have a reason to feel empty, lost, confused.
and sometimes when i am happy, it comes back, like a big wave crashing down on me, pulling me into the tide, pushing my body back and forth, undrowned.

alone

i was sitting alone at the park smoking today and i was finally able to be alone with m thoughts. i realized that i have nobody. it is a very sad thing to say but its true. after 9 months i finally saw that everyone in my life is gone. i used to call everyone to meet me but my friend marisse told me they should be the ones calling me, wanting me to hang out with them. i really hated everyone at the time and at the end of the day i knew i was alone and all i had left with me was myself. i am completely done with life. i dont really want to live anymore but somehow i want to prove to people i am not just some annoying pretty girl. i want to learn and study and show them i am something more than just that. i am going to make that happen because i know i am better than them. i know it.

ew

hello

sticker shoes

fuck u

i am so angry, it is like you dont even care anymore. you do not just go and flirt with fucking girls on twitter then expect me not to say anything. you do not just avoid my question when u dont reply me all fucking day. do you know how much i want to scream at you right now. i have never been so angry at someone. i want to explode. i hate you i hate you i hate you

time is money

"please stop, you're hurting me"

3 officers shoved me into a room. they handcuffed me to the table.
" Now, you have 8 seconds to tell me where the money is before i bring my boss in, young lady"
i kept quiet. i couldnt tell them even if i wanted to. i promised gen.
i knew they could see the desperation to leave in my eyes. they knew i had the money.
suddenly the boss came in with a giant bucket of water. he took me by the hair and shoved my face in the water for which felt like 30 seconds.
the coolness of the water awoke me but i was gasping for fresh air. he pulled me out and then dunked me back in again. the second time felt weird. i could feel some type of liquid burning my face, like something eating it.
when he took me out again he got a mirror and put it directly in front of my face. i looked up and saw the flesh from both my cheeks being exposed. blood was pouring from my scalp. the water was acidic. i laughed and then dunked my head back in the acidic water. i rather burn i screamed.